THE CRIME I COULD NOT REMEMBER

Dream recorded 5/22/2024

This was a nightmare.

I was at my parents’ home, though it looked different from any house I have seen before.

I was shoveling piles of manure out of their garage and we were arguing.

I had my child with me. I packed my things because we were leaving.

Then I saw a news broadcast showing a man who had been shot in the eye. Someone had also forged a check and my initials appeared on the screen.

My heart sank. I didn’t remember killing anyone, but in the dream I thought maybe something I had done when I was younger had led to this.

I knew the police were coming for me. I thought about leaving and never opening the door to my home again.

I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t want to leave my child and I didn’t want to tell anyone. I didn’t want to go to jail.

Then I woke up but still felt the same fear.